Neurodiversity Awareness/Appreciation

Neurodiversity Awareness/Appreciation

Monday, May 18, 2020

I Want To Start Blogging Again

Me with my new friend Story at Odd Man Inn! 
Hi everyone! It has been so long since I have written in my blog! But I want to start writing again. This is a good time for me to start blogging again since I am at home so much now... but it also may be more difficult for me to blog since nothing really happens!

Updates for the past year that I've been invisible...

I don't remember if I blogged about it (I'm sure I did) but I was non-renewed from my job as a special education teacher at the end of my first year. For those of you who don't work in education, basically being non-renewed means that, if you have worked at a school for less than 2 years, they are able to discontinue your contract at the end of the school year without giving a reason. For me, the principal did give me a reason, and it was everything related to problems with my autism, rather than with my teaching. It broke my heart and my spirit, and I was pretty much just existing sadly for a year.

I did try starting my own small school, but it didn't work out, which pushed me into more depression. The hardest thing about my particular autism, for me, is that I have a lot of dreams and I have so many things I want to do, but problems related to my autism, or people's perception of me, get in the way. I do always try. My mom even said that she's never met anyone who tries as hard as me. But... obstacles pop up. Sometimes the obstacle is my own anxiety, and sometimes it is a stubborn principal who believes that teachers should look, think, act and teach in a very specific way. (The principal literally said that, even.)

So. I felt pretty defeated at that point, after also being non-renewed from another school the year before that for similar reasons. In the back of my head, I had always been thinking that if worse came to worst I could always get a job in a child care center, because I could easily qualify. But I was reluctant. I struggled my way through college to get a bachelor's degree, I worked SUPER hard to earn my teaching degree, and I felt like going back to a job I had when I was 19 would be squandering all of that.

Finally, worse did come to worst. So I looked for, and found, a job at a child care center. In many ways it was my dream job! I was given a classroom of children ages 2 to 5, and the freedom to do just about anything I wanted. In the past the classroom had pretty much been just a daycare, where the children had free play with toys all day long but not much else. I worked really hard to start making it into an actual preschool program, while still making sure children had plenty of time for open play.

The director was awesome... and she actually appreciated me! It had been years since I'd had a boss that encouraged me and listened to me!

But then Coronavirus hit, the center was shut down, and it may or may not open again. They keep changing their minds. So I've been home.

In the meantime, I've been staying busy with two things. One thing has been painting rocks. There is a Facebook group in my town where you can post the rocks you paint or find. I've been painting rocks and then hiding them, mostly in the park across from my apartment building, or around the neighborhood.

I also joined Tiktok and started making videos.

I was really just doing that out of boredom... but then awesome things happened! I made a few videos about autism, and people really loved them. I started getting a lot of followers. I made more and more videos. And I am still making videos several times a week! Some are about autism, and some are just for fun. People's favorite videos seem to be about my sensory things and fidget toys. So I'm hoping to do more of those types of videos.

If you have Tiktok, you can find me! My name on Tiktok is AngelNicki111.

I'm going to end this blog entry for now so it doesn't become too long... but if you are reading this, please comment to say hi so I know someone is still here!

1 comment :

  1. Hello! I'm here! So great to hear from you! And what a coincidence because I also blogged today for the first time in forever.

    Glad you're healthy and well. Total bummer about your job. But hold that success close to your heart, remember what you're capable of, and believe you'll find something great again. I'm really proud of you.



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