|This is the game we played in my group.|
Well, apparently, they take the group's "18 and over" policy very literally. As in, the group members seem to have just turned 18, like, yesterday. Some are even still in high school!
So now I have another decision. Do I stay in the group, or not?
The group is meant for adults of all ages, not specifically very young adults. It just happens that the people who seem to find out about the group are those who were part of the center's group for teenagers... they "graduate" to this group when they turn 18.
I know I'm overly sensitive about the age part, because I look very young and seem to act very young sometimes too. It doesn't bother me horribly to be mistaken for a teenager. What bothers me is when I'm forced to say how old I am, and people go, "WHAT? You're how old? Are you serious? Oh my God! Oh, wow! I had no idea!" It is embarrassing, hurts my feelings, and makes me feel like a freak. I'm also very sensitive about being treated like a child a lot, because of my disability.
But the truth is, I am in the same boat as many of these 18-year-olds. I need help with life skills, overcoming my shyness, and moving forward in my life.
I try to think of it like this: If I signed up for a college class, and saw that most of the other students were about 18, would I drop the class? Or would I stay in order to get the same knowledge and experience that they are getting?
Yesterday we played Apples To Apples, as an ice-breaker since there were also several other new people in the group that week. Apples To Apples! I love that game! But I rarely have anyone to play it with.
In other news, today was my first day at my long-term subbing job. I was supposed to be going on a field trip with them to a karate class, so I dressed in loose pants and a long-sleeved T-shirt. But at the last minute they switched me to a different class, because they felt that the sub that came for that class wouldn't be able to deal with the kids with special needs. I was disappointed at first, but I actually had a really good time in the class I was sent to! It was a first grade special ed class with only about six students in it. One of them was a little girl with autism who is almost completely nonverbal (she can sort of say a few words like "hi," "Bye," "Yes," "No," etc) and often has a difficult time... she starts crying loudly a lot in class and is unable to say why. I've met her a few times when I've helped out in that class for just an hour at a time, on my "floater" rotations. Last time I was there, she randomly came and stood in front of me, and I swung her gently back and forth. A lot of kids with autism love that because of the deep pressure and rocking feeling. This time, she seemed to remember me, and kept coming to hold my hand or to give me hugs, all day long. She was very sweet. I kind of wish I could be in that room again.
Anyways, we'll see what happens, with the group, with subbing, and with everything. Right? Right.